welcome

the newest member of my family.

Stevie.

Brangelina eat your heart out

sleep still evades me

i dont want another night of staring blankly at millionth reruns of law and order wishing that my sleeping pills gave me a little more than a nice buzz.

i need sleep. or someone to come keep me company

one week later...

im a little tired of the suspicious glances and furrowed brows

Things get worse before they get better

but how bad do they have to get?



junkie arm update:
the picture just doesnt do it justice

Grey skies

i am trying to convince myself to go outside to the shops. need coffee, makeup and hairdye STAT.

and a whole new wardrobe but thats not going to happen so whatever.

so this is the result of my doctors appointment on MONDAY (keeping in mind today is thursday)
hello junkie arm! oh so attractive! but i think its starting to get better.. hence it being all green and shit. heaps love how it bruised the vein right up my arm. hotttt

anyway! hot damn tonight, hoping miss awesome will be here but i havent heard anything. have to go to dinner with the boy's parents tonight too... in a park, while its arctic weather outside. interesting.

coffee.... bye

hello nausea

where have you been all my life?
can i wash you away with a chilled vodka and a sleeping pill?


DONT MIND IF I DO

Doctor, Doctor;

My first (alive) day of unemployment.

I am sitting in my room half dressed trying to put off going to the doctors. its inevitable i know but all the things i have to get poked, prodded, looked at and medicated for... well its a long list.

Mostly i am scared. i dont want to find out im sick again. it was too scary and too much to handle the first time.

but, if i walk up the road to go i can spoil myself with coffee and other purchases.

oh maybe a new book. hmmm.

two date nights in a row this week. Tonight - Dinner with Grace Anatomy. whatta babe. lovely catch ups in a cosy pub setting.


and then tomorrow night - i am Miss Courtney Awesome's date to the Grand Social's pop up store party thingy.

and yes, we ARE going to drink that free booze like we worked for it.

okay. i cant put this off any longer.

luck.

so sick so sick of being tired

and oh so tired of being sick.


i have the flu so hardcore it is surprising that i am actually still alive. my lack of sleep and bad habits and crazy head have caught up with me and my body if fighting a losing battle.

id be okay if i could just sleep... i just want some sleep.

Tonight

Going to hot damn for the first time in 6 months


hmmm.

oh noes!

Get Better Brian Kinney!

i just

quit my job


i dont know where i am going from here.

oh dear

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

Tuesday.

If you have a secret on your mind, then it may start becoming a little too burdensome to keep under wraps. The astral energy of the day could have the effect that, although you don't really want anyone to know, you find it very hard to keep quiet. This is especially difficult if it involves an affair of the heart, yet for peace of mind, you know what you have to do.




i cant yet.

Today

Activities of various kinds in the company of either close friends lunch with lulu? or romantic partners nil could take up a lot of your time today as long as it gets me out of this house, Sarah. This could involve physical activity such as sports or exercise going for a run tonight fatty?, or it might involve parties always good to hear, or it could involve attending events such as lectures or workshops, concerts, or the theater. Expect a lot of stimulation hehe both physical and intellectual, and some interesting conversations. Enjoy your day.

You may well find that certain reservations begin to slowly clear up. still waiting A relationship in which you feel deeply bonded to the other has been causing you to feel a sense of misgiving and utter shitness, due to a recent communication problem that is an understatement. So far, it seems that this has been almost impossible to resolve ahh yes. But today a breakthrough occurs, and a very significant one at that. significantly bad or good? i havent figured that out yet

home is where your heart is

my heart is lost. But i am back in sydney which would have been nice. I've had so much time to think, and now.. Well. Things probably wont be how we planned.

I would ask for tomorrow to be better

but its already tomorrow and things arent looking up.







to the one kid who took the time to see how i am.... not one i would have expected.

Thank you.

on more than one occasion you have cared more than the people who should. im still glad that you do.

I just came here to say that I'm going away

Something no little tear of yours can change

Like in that famous poem by Vulane

Like some ill wind, I'll blow away

Remember the good times that we had

Turn pale or suffocate, I truly regret

Yeah, I'm sorry to say that I'm going away

You ask me, did I love you?

Well, I loved you, okay

I just came here to say that I'm going away

Something no long sob of yours can change

Like in that great old poem by Vulane

Like some dead leaf, I'll blow away

You remember the sweet things that we said

Turn gray or moan or sway, I truly regret

Yeah, I'm sorry to say I only came to say I'm going away

Babe, because you did too much to me

Subtle

Get out in the world as much as possible, leave the house? Sarah, because you have a great deal to share with others. excess weight? my lunch? Relationships with men will go especially well today, thats a laugh so now is a good time to patch up any differences i would if i werent calling the unattainable that may be dangling in the air. Open your mind up even wider than it already is and see how your energy energy? fits in with the collective. You have strong opinions you suck that will prove to be very useful in setting the record straight once and for all. i doubt that

This could be a day when meeting your soul mate should at least be a real possibility oh lucky I never left the house. Although technically you can meet your true partner anywhere and at any time oh like i need that hanging over my head, there is a certain essential balance in the air today that encourages harmonious encounters. Above all, you need to be totally utterly and truly yourself. because its so enticing

Insomnia

je suis fatigue

One more distraction

the gift that just keeps on giving

hello today,

you are determined to make me miserable.

why?

what did i do to you?

cry

Bollocks

You dont do that with me, and Ive asked so often.

Arch enemies and broken hearts.

Maybe I'm not as hopeful as I thought

Welcome to the day Miss M

5 minutes out of bed and I hear

"I was thinking, you look less.... uh, slim than the last time I saw you"


Wow. Thanks. Because I wasnt aware enough of that as it is.

Brilliant.

So, Canberra is the same as always. Lots of guys in track pants with greasy looking mullets and girls with pineapple haircuts. Its a little depressing.

The weather is fine and my mother is fabulous and cooking non stop as always.

Lots of coffee dates and now I am going to teach myself french with my brand spanking new purchase from Borders.

oui oui

Obesophobia

I need to get my life back together

V.I.P

So.... Grace and I went VIP to metro station... hahaha. which i thought i would TOTALLY HATE. But, they were actually really good... and they completely sold out the roundhouse which is a fucking good effort.


they seem like good kids, at least... Anthony does. I am thanking my lucky stars i didn't have to spend my time around a certain other member who seems like a complete and utter tosser.

free everything at world bar with them was nice too. we got in on some gossip that's all "hush hush" and i made fun of them. all in all a good night.

CENSORED

censorship: the control of speech and other forms of human expression.

POKEYDEX

two of the hottest bitches out are djing at 777 on friday

could i be more excited, I DOUBT IT